Remember my awesome new job?

Well, I don't have that anymore. : (

Sorry.

I'll talk more about that in future posts, but I thought I would go ahead and put it up here, because I know there will be people who come here before I get around to telling them.

It's all okay. And no, we don't really know what we're going to do about it. We'll do something, for sure.

I'm not sad I took it, and I'm not sad I had it. I'm not sad, particularly, about things that I am taking away from it. I am sad... horribly sad... as all of us here at the Cap house are, that I lost it.

But that's okay.

Seriously.

-j

Feet per Second, Tom Petty and the Theory of Relativity

I'm so tired of being tired
sure as night will follow day
most things I worry about
never happen anyway

--Tom Petty "Crawling back to you"

We are not good at being settled in our discontent. Once we experience unpleasant emotions, feelings or circumstances, we immediately begin slinging possible antidotes at our symptoms, hoping desperately that one of them will fix the problem--and then sinking further into misery with our repeated failures at self-healing.

Let the fires burn around you. Will they get worse with time? Most likely. But in most cases, there is no ultimate danger of being consumed. Only of being uncomfortable. Don't panic. Don't act. Persevere. It is only in the waiting that we have time to reflect on ourselves and our situation. To gain perspective, insight, and then draw a bead on the one true culprit.

Ironically, once we have him in our sights, release rarely comes from a squeeze of the trigger. Any more than did our earlier, rapid-fire attempts. Usually, by the time we've aligned the crosshairs, our tormentor has waddled out of range.

Slowly out-pacing any bullet faster than time itself.

Never shoot yourself in the head

Never shoot yourself in the head, because Bob Dylan might just not have gotten around to calling you yet.